Well, on Wednesday morning I'll be having surgery to find out what's been causing the pain in my lower left abdomen over the last year or so. The pain is nowhere near as severe as it was five years ago when I first had surgery for endometriosis; but it's enough that
something needs to be done. Because it's so localized to the left side,
it is very likely that scar tissue is the culprit; but there is always a
chance that there are other issues. (One of my biggest fears is that
there are issues with my intestines/colon, so I'm really hoping and praying that they are
healthy and will stay intact.)
The
doctor who will be doing the surgery is a fertility specialist. Although
the primary reason for the surgery is not fertility related, she'll
obviously take a look around while she's in there. I'm very thankful
because I believe Ryan and I are at a point where we are ready for any
news, and know that more information is never a bad thing. (Compared to
most of the last five years, where I just didn't want to know.)
Well, I could go into a lot more detail about my hopes and fears, but right now I mostly feel like not thinking about it. I need to get through a few hours of work tomorrow, and then I'm sure Ryan will get to listen to me hash out my feelings tomorrow night.
For now, I'll just rest in the peace of knowing that God's in control and that Wednesday is another opportunity for Him to write a few more pages of my story.
Edit (5/22/2013): Wow...it's been over 8 months! Surgery went well. Doctor said she was able to "clean" things up, and that if we were hoping to get pregnant, soon after the surgery would be the best time. The thing is...that's not really our hope. Even after the surgery we've continued to be so very content not having children. So that's that. :)
